When the Universe knocks on your door...
...you answer. I do not see what other choice you have.
The Universe and I share a life long love "history", and throughout the years we have developed a mutual understanding of each other, that exceeds common norms. We are deeply intertwined and fundamentally united at our core, as I am fully aware that I am a walking, talking fractal of its magnificence, while IT is the melting pot that has held space for creation...for infinite fractals and infinite birthing.
As a child and teenager, my dreams would often be of galaxies far away and of constellations unheard of, and I would wake up from these vivid dreams with a lingering longing, that would haunt me for days on end. I could hear the truth the stars whispered to me, and I could feel their power deeply within my chest, star dust to star dust...conversing during the night through echoes of remembrance. There were also nights when I could hear their calling in my ears... a sharp ringing tone that would startle my human vessel and disrupt my sleep.
I was a child and a teenager back then...with no one to talk to about these experiences; it was many years and many dreams later that I could muster up the courage and speak of my cosmic journeys. And many more years and many more dreams flew by before I dared ask the Universe the one question that I had asked myself a million times during my young years... who am I really?
when the universe knocks on your door, you answer. I do not see what other choice you have.
Venice... a convergence point
A year into my journey of awakening, my husband and I decided to visit my oldest friend and her life companion in Italy. I had never been in Venice before, and the two of them are so fortunate to live relatively close by to it, so one Saturday morning, encouraged by the beautiful Indian summer sun, we set off on a date with Venice, the city of love, water and canals.
I remember that day so vividly still. We stopped for cakes and coffee, we stopped for window shopping and glass art shopping, and I personally stopped to pick up a red ribbon that someone had discarded and left in the street. I thought that was rude, a desecration of this beautiful old city, so I held tight to the ribbon, and for almost an hour I looked for a garbage bin, where I could throw it away. Little did I know!
An hour later, I was somewhat distancing myself from our little group... and there it was....the mighty garbage bin, that I had so desperately been trying to find. I picked up the pace, and found myself in front of it...ready to get rid of the red ribbon...when my eyes fell on something rather unexpected...a blue book that was almost crowning the over filled bin. The name of the book was "La Scienza. 1. L*UNIVERSO". I could not believe my eyes. I had been asking for signs and confirmations that would validate my newly adopted path, however this felt... SACRED. I did not hesitate for a second, so I swiftly made the exchange...an offering to the garbage bin gods... the red ribbon for the BOOK. My heart was pounding...and for a split second all existence stopped... I was holding the UNIVERSE in my arms, and seeing the red ribbon for what is really was... bread crumbs on my path of awakening, a bridge of light that facilitated this divine moment, this beautiful reconnection, this... serendipity.
I am still holding my blue book close by this day today. I even found a similar red ribbon to wrap around my unexpected precious gift from my, your and our amazing and infinitely expanding universe. And what are red ribbons for anyway...if not a beautiful way to deliver a gift. And this was indeed The Universe's wrapped determination to show me that my path is clearing...my heart is opening and my trust is strengthening.
So thank you a million times... mighty Universe. I truly see the grander scheme of things, and deeply feel your answer to my teenage question with every atom of my body... I am YOU, YOU are ME and WE are truly ONE.
Who am I really? my eager teenage self asked into the void one night.
The answer came when I least expected it, 25 years later...from the Universe itself.
I am YOU
You are ME
And WE are truly ONE